I went to see a movie tonight, solo, for the first time evah. It turned out to be no big deal. I sat in the back and laughed to myself at the funny parts and ate popcorn for dinner and headed home. In case you're wondering, the movie I saw was Barney's Version. It was pretty good, though nothing spectacular. It was a very spur-of-the-moment decision - really, I was looking to see something sad, and the description (a retrospective of Barney's life) sounded sad enough. (It wasn't, though. I barely teared up!)I'd been at the local library (after forcing myself to get out of the apartment for a change of scenery), writing in my journal for a good two hours as I tried to figure out some things that have been bugging me in my life - mostly, my Future (summer / courses for next year / what to do after grad). Normally it helps to get everything down on paper, because it gives me perspective, but I think that, this evening, the writing was actually making it worse.
I just wanted to take a break from my life; to escape my mind. Hopping on a plane somewhere was appealing but wholly impractical, so I settled for a temporary vacation. I decided to either get rip-roaringly drunk or to go see a movie. I debated in my mind about whether I should text Rebelle to see if she would join me, because I assumed she would say no. I did end up texting her, and she did end up saying no (was tired & had a headache). I didn't know who else to ask, so I decided that I would just do it alone. Since I didn't feel like getting drunk all by myself (and also I'd left my ID at the apartment), I decided to see a movie. I checked the movie listings and saw that Barney's Version was starting in 6 minutes. Luckily, I was 4 minutes from the theatre so I speed-walked there, bought some popcorn for "dinner," and watched the movie.
I do feel better now, even though absolutely nothing has changed...except, I can again pretend that everything is fine. (Read: repress. If I learned one thing from Personality Psych, it's that I am a repressor.)
...I don't really know why I am posting this, because I had all these thoughtful, actually interesting topics I've been meaning to blog about for weeks...but, I've learned, when "inspiration" strikes, it's best to go with it. So here I am.
Movies by yourself is wonderfully (if temporarily) therapeutic. Be careful you don't indulge too often though, or going to the movies with other people (ie. having to go to a movie you don't want to see because everyone else does want to see it) becomes an unnecessary chore that you'll begin not participating in. Also, getting addicted to solo movies is an expensive habit.
ReplyDeleteAnd yay popcorn as dinner. If I plan on seeing a movie, I usually Popcorn Fast all day so that the intake of fat is meeting my daily reccomended intake, and not exceeding it after having eaten other crap during the day.